tonight, i took some time to send off some text messages and emails to close friends who i've just been carelessly fallen out of touch with. and there's actually very very many of them.
people don't realise this about me, that i'm actually quite antisocial. that' i'm really quite introverted. people laugh when i tell them this. the only way they'd rationalise this if i've a dual personality. but i don't. people don't realise that extrovertness takes a lot of energy out of someone. being funny, outrageous, hilarious all takes its toll. and at the end of the day, when we (extroverts) can be alone, we'd rather be alone. quiet, introverted, and reclusive. i mean you hear this all the time about comedians like Jim Carrey or even my favourite Owen Wilson- noone believes that they could ever be depressed, and in Wilson's case depressed enough to try and take his own life. Just cos they're funny most of the time.
Ok- i'm not hinting that i'm depressed. I'm just saying that i look all friendly and bubbly, and you'd expect that i'm always out surrounded by people, partying and having a ball of a time. And i do have fun and hang out with people SOME TIMES, but if you ask my very close friends- they hardly see or hear from me most of the time. and that's just it. i have very very few friends i consider close.
The friendships that have persevered time are those where my friends and i, can hear nothing from or about each other for months at end, but we don't feel awkward about it. We never come to the conclusion that we're being ignored, or that we don't care about each other. BUT, but if any one of my friends needed me, and if i needed them. no questions asked- we drop everything for each other. No rubbish like- 'What never hear from you in months, now you need my help, you come to me'.
Of course there is some unofficial maximum time line that you draw- i mean if you haven't heard from a friend in 2 or 3 years, you'd not know if they've moved away to the other side of the globe or is even still alive right? so some sign of life is healthy. If not, they just drop off your radar, well until they bleep back onto the radar i suppose. Cos if that happened, i'd welcome them with open arms- i mean people have their own lives to lead right?
Anyway, tonight, i thought i'd send my friends some signs that i'm still breathing. *hee*
btw- hubby is the total opposite of me. he's like mister-keep-in-touch-with-friends-constantly kinda man. which is why, he's out hanging out with some sec school friend tonite while i'm blogging in bed about ensuring my friends know that i'm still breathing.
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