Actually, I feel like I've been married sooooo much longer. It must be the effect of raising twins. It's like Mr Eveel and I have been to hell and back? What's that about? Our twins are amazing and they bring us so much joy. That's true. But when it's been difficult and challenging, it has been MOST difficult and TERRIFYINGLY challenging!
I'm happy to report that I am happy. We are happy. I've mentioned in an earlier post that I don't believe in blisfully happy. And i realise in large part its because of my personality that is never ever ever satisfied. I can recall countless incidences where I relive an experience and dissect every moment to always always conclude that I should or could have done things differently and maybe it could have turned out better.
For example, I still wished that I had started my wedding dinner on time instead of waiting for guests who were late. And it still nags me that the kebaya I wore for my nikah or solemnisation wasn't cut as well as I wanted it to be. Etc...see?
So all in all. The 3 years have been good. As good as I think I could ever, in my head, let it be.
My colleagues remind me everyday that I must be a nightmare to be married to.
Seriously. They actually say something along those lines in my face. Okay, maybe I do have a tendency to exaggerate some things. They don't use the word nightmare. Maybe its more along the lines of -they can't imagine being married to me. That isn't much better is it? lol!
But it's true lah. I am a nightmare to be married to.
Mostly cause I believe that at least with my spouse, above all people, that I'm able to voice out every frustration I feel, every anxiety. That I don't have to edit or censor myself. That i can be truly that person I cannot be with anyone else BUT him.
And despite that, he still wants to be married to me. Awwwww........
Anyhoo, we had a fabulous time in Koh Lanta, Krabi to celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary, and also to celebrate surviving 1 year of parenthood (it really hasn't been easy lor!) I'll post more about our trip soon.
