Today, my little baby boys started childcare.
I've been an anxious mess for awhile. I know my kids will start off probably kicking and screaming. But i never knew how much I would be taken off-guard.
They're attending the PCF childcare Sparkletots which is at my void deck. SCORE! With 2 boys and no car, having their childcare be situated at the void-deck is heaven sent!
Thank you the gods of HDB that had bestowed us with a good ballot number for this SERs development!
(Dear God, I didn't really mean that. I do thank you for all that. I just wanted to be sarcastic about the housing situation in Singapore and how many of my peers are finding it really tough to get decently prices housing in a good location. I'm really very thankful!)
Okay, sorry...I disgress.
I really thought that they were going to be a-okay if I was around. Confidently told my husband, he didn't need to sit in with them and that I, the SUPERMUM, would be able to handle everything! You see, parents are encouraged to sit in for the 1st 3 days. But only for half a day, and the kid goes home with you at noon. So I thought, sure, no problem!
And they were ok. Kinda. I mean, they were rambunctious. Didn't listen to the teacher, kinda played with toys and puzzles they weren't suppose to play with and climbed tables which were not for climbing. Of course all this while other children, some of them pretty new, set nicely and listened to teacher.
So things were ok, until teacher said, "let's go for a short-walk". And i was like ," HOLY CRAP!" (under my breath of course!). There were 3 teachers and like 10 toddlers, from like 1.5-3yrs. I was like- "You folks, sure are brave!"
I really felt absolutely powerless. I never bring the boys out walking, just us! They're always in their tandem tricycle or in the prams. And i only let them out to run wild, in areas which are contained! Today- I had no control over the situation.
While all the little children walked in straight file, holding each others hands, I was trying to drag my boys along. They were trying to do all sorts of things but walk quietly!
And it was such a short short short walk! Like all of 50m before they wanted the kids to go back in!
I was soo thinking that we were screwed! The boys are used to me/grandpa letting them run loose at playgrounds and sandpits for like hours at an end. A 5 min walk, not even run or crawl, was not going to sit well with either.
True enough, they started to throw tantrums, screaming "NAK SHOOOEEEEEE!!!! "(want shoe
) on loop. I'm sure the whole freaking estate heard them.
They continued to cry and scream, refusing to let me go. I was absolutely losing it, utterly embarassed in front of the chinese speaking other mum, who gave no visual signals of encouragement to me, but was focusing on her child who was behaving perfectly. ERK!
I sent a text SOS to my hubby. Who came down. And, I dunno if it was cos he was there, that the 2 calmed down, and the rest of the day went on a bit better.
Sigh..day 2 tomorrow, and hubby isn't going to be around.
Wish me luck!