Pretty Eveel Adventures

Pretty Eveel Adventures: January 2011

Friday, January 28, 2011

my twin pregnancy journal- eviction notice

36 weeks.  47 inches around.

Ame sent me a link to this photo saying that she thought of me when she saw it.
It made me laugh. I definitely am feeling like an eviction notice is in order!
I am also wondering whether this photo was airbrushed.
This mother has little if any stretchmarks.
Mine, on the other hand, have taken a life of its own.
And oh so itchy too!


my twin pregnancy journal- you don't understand!

33 weeks

Despite not putting on much weight, I am HUGE!

Besides the usual backaches that people associate with pregnancy, I suffer from a lot of discomfort such as, pain and aches in the lower part of my belly, probably because of the weight of the babies. My pelvic area hurts too, and my upper thigh muscles quickly tense up and get stiff after a short while of sitting down stationary. So everytime i get up from sitting down, I struggle a little to walk, and often look like I'm shuffling or waddling as the muscles get moving.

The other night, mum saw me get up from the couch to go to the toilet and she remarked, "Eveel, can't you walk a little nicer. You look awful shuffling around like that"

Her remark just blew my top off!

I retorted ," Excuse me, mother. I am carrying 4.4 kilos worth of babies right now at 33 weeks. How heavy was your heaviest baby at full term? Tell me, how heavy?"

She laughed and replied ," Oh, bout 3kilos"

I then went on a long diatribe about how she and ANY other mother who has never carried twins before has NO idea what I and other twin mothers are going through, and therefore should do what is right- which is to keep their mouths SHUT!


Thursday, January 27, 2011

my twin pregnancy journal- breastfeeding fears

33 weeks

I picked up my medela freestyle breastpump earlier this week. After reading the instructions and going through all the stuff in the box, i stuffed everything nicely back into the box. I haven't even charged the batteries yet. I'm not sure when i'll use it, maybe not the first few weeks maybe? I'm not sure.

I woke up this morning at 4am for my usual pee break and to turn, which i do periodically every 2 hours these days. And as i sat on my bed, my head flopped forward half awake, waiting for my muscles to warm up a little before getting up to go to the loo, i thought, 'This would be how it would be like waking up for late feeds i suppose'.

Then i started panicking about the logistics about how i will be able to concurrently feed Upin and Ipin. I started fretting- what if i drop them, what if 1 or worse, both, roll off the bed. Would I have to get hubby to help me, wouldn't he be too tired for work the next day if he doesn't get proper rest. It went on and on and on...till i found myself wide awake at 4am.

I couldn't go back to sleep. Ended up making myself toast and an omelette and having a super early breakfast. Ah well, i suppose i'll figure it out...



my twin pregnancy journal- update on upin and ipin

33 weeks

Check up last Saturday went very well. Upin and Ipin are about 2.2 kilos each, which is a good weight. In fact, my baby centre update for 33 weeks for a single baby went something like- ' Your baby is about 2 kilos by now' mine are 0.2 kilos heavier than an average singleton baby at 33 weeks!

In fact, i still have a good supply of amniotic fluid in each bag, which doctor says means that the babies still have plenty of space to grow bigger. YIKES!

The extremely good news i heard was that at 33 weeks, Upin and Ipin have about a 100% chance of survival if they are delivered now. They may need just special care, and doc assured me that the chances of taking them home almost immediately is very good!

Here's a happy mommy...counting down to seeing my 2 little babies...


Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Useful Xmas Pressie

One of my Xmas gifts came packed into this lil bag that I found so delightful.

While it was packed with fabulous goodies, it was this little bag that I found sooo useful.

I'm not sure if the bag itself was meant to be a present, or just something convenient to hold the pressies in...but it was my favourite of the goodies it came with.

I've been just been absolutely everywhere with it!

Although, when the babies come, it'll be way too small for all the baby stuff i'll have to lug around!


hubby's new look

He was huddling over the macbook as usual one evening, when I realised that he was squinting at the screen. It all seemed to click. He'd been complaining of headaches, and with the squinting...perhaps...just perhaps...hubby needed glasses.

I dragged him to the optomotrist, and what did you know? He DID need glasses. And not only that, his astigmatism was worse than mine! And I've had my glasses now for over 5 years!

It took forever for vain hubby to pick a pair of glasses, and although he liked a pair that made him look quite nerdy, he picked one that suited him a little more! Bringing out the mat in him!



my twin pregnancy journal- a'wristed' development!

32 weeks

As if nothing else could go wrong! I've had what i thought was just a strained wrist for some time now. But a chance meeting with an aunt who used to be a physiotherapist warned that my symptoms weren't a simple wrist twist, but something to do with my ligaments. She also told me that if it WAS what she suspected, I'd need steroid injections or if it got!

So, having avoided a visit to the doctor about it for quite awhile. I reluctantly went, and as I feared, it was ligament damage. And as I had also suspected, there's nothing that can be done for me now to help with the pain because of my pregnancy. No oral medication, and I can't do steroid injections. Now, I had expected all this news, and so wasn't quite bummed...


My mom, who was with me at the doctor, asked if my new found hobby of crocheting had been a factor in my hurting my wrist. Although i yelped out frantically that the pain had begun before i started crocheting, my doctor sternly said, 'No more'. He warned that if I continued with the constant repetitive action with my wrist, the damage could worsen, and I may find even carrying a baby's bottle really difficult.

So, a wasted trip to the yarn shop the day before. Bundles of yarn that cannot fulfill its destiny to be elephants and monkeys for the twins and for nephew Mik.



Thursday, January 13, 2011

my twin pregnancy journal- going out is just hard to do

week 31

Moi was really excited that I had a hospital appointment today at KKH to see my counsellor (read: psychiatrist). I was really looking forward to doing some shopping at the hospital for last minute baby stuff and then heading out to town for awhile to get a book at Kinokuniya at Taka. I was also hoping to head to Ang Mo Kio central to get more yarn to finish the 2 other elephants i'm crocheting for my twins.

What i've learnt is that- it is almost impossible now to gallavant. Just a month ago, I could take the shuttle from the hospital to the nearby MRT station, and walk around Orchard AND take the MRT home.

But not anymore.

Just the 500m walk down the corridor from the hospital clinic to the nearby mothercare outlet left me wheezing. Even with a cab-ride to Taka, I still had to sit down for a break, just walking through Kinokuniya! In fact, throughout my half-hour trip in Kinokuniya, I sat down for a total of 3 times for about a total of 15 minutes. Thank goodness I knew what i wanted to find and the sales assistants were very helpful. PLUS Kino isn't as crowded as Borders, and there were many benches that I could park my lardbutt on for a break.

The rest of the trip was a physical strain. I needed to get something from Taka itself and did it as quickly as i could. I also needed to make a trip to the pharmacy, and by the end of it I was breathless and feeling giddy. I parked myself on a bench, next to the loo, for ten minutes just trying to catch my breath. Luckily for me I had a bottle of water to help me keep hydrated and cool.

The queue for the taxi was equally strenuous. There were no seats, and I was just praying that someone would let me just jump ahead of the queue. People stared at me, with looks of disbelief that I was probably out and about, seeing how huge I was, but noone offered to let me jump ahead of the queue! It wasn't as if there were no taxis available, it was just that the turning out of Taka is quite busy, and the taxi movement was slower than it could be.

The taxi ride back was terrible. I was giddy, and I spent ten minutes upon reaching home, with my head in a plastic bag, puking out what little I had for breakfast. I spent the rest of the afternoon being giddy and tired. And dissappointed I didn't even manage to make my yarn stop!

That's it. No more outings I think. At least without hubby, who can help fuss over me. Definitely shouldn't be gallavanting on my own anymore.



Monday, January 10, 2011


I'm huge now and work is just impossible. My back always feels like its breaking and it's just difficult to move around. So i've started my stay at home for the next 6 weeks before i deliver and go on maternity.

I'm lucky that my OBGYN has asked me to rest at home, and supplied me with the necessary MC for it, and I also saved up 21 days of leave from last year that I can take at leisure now. So what am i going to be up to for the next 6 weeks you say?

Oh I have some ideas up my sleeve. I've been cross-stitching and also crocheting- amigurami.

This is a cross-stitch of a book character called Humphrey. I hope to frame it and put it up in the twin's nursery when our place is ready. I hope to get some Humphrey books too, so that they know who Humphrey is.

And this is an elephant i crocheted! The friend helped teach me, and I went crazy with the crochet needles. This was my first try, using some of her leftover yarn. I've gotten some blue and purple yarn, and i'm going to crochet another 2 for the twins. I won't let them play with it when they're born of course, as i'm afraid the eyes will fall out, but hope to also decorate the nursery with them! =)

Oh, don't ask me why i decided to make elephants! Beats me!


my twin pregnancy journal- antenatal blues

week 31

The truth is, I've been suffering from ante-natal blues. I'm not depressed, but i've felt down enough to shed a couple of tears.

It started during my first trimester. Then it was about the horrible morning sickness, which left me feeling not quite myself. I was also bummed that I was not at work, and not my usual productive self, and would have episodes where i would breakdown crying in the shower. I remember just feeling so shitty and not myself, and feeling like this was all too much for me.

One episode saw me bawling my eyes out at my OBGYN's office, simply reacting to his question, "How are you, Eveel?" It didn't surprise me that I was referred to see a counsellor (read: psychiatrist) at KKH. Of course my OBGYN made it very clear that it was all the hormones and it would be helpful to have someone to talk to.

My first session went terribly. I cried for the whole 1hr session. I remember crying that I was afraid that I would lose the pregnancy fearing that the first miscarriage episode would repeat itself, I remember crying that I didn't feel happy, that I didn't feel I knew who I was, etc. The counsellor was very nice, telling me that what I was going through was just an 'adjustment' problem with the pregnancy, possibly brought upon by the extra load of hormones that a twin pregnancy brought along.

After the 1st trimester blues were over, I felt better. So i didn't have many sessions with the counsellor during my 2nd trimester, the counsellor did decide to see me during my 3rd trimester, just to check that my mood hadn't gotten worse then, especially when I was expected to get big, uncomfortable and probably cranky from lack of sleep.

True to what was expected, I was back to my crying state again, scaring my husband shitless. The worst episode, was one morning on the way to work. I just couldn't bring myself to go into the office. I stopped for brekkie at McDonald's at Rider's Park (at Queenstown). And when i got back into the car and started it, I just started bawling. Cried and cried and cried. It felt like the whole world was collapsing around me. Called my husband, who told me to go straight back home!

Then the crying and the weeping started again. It was largely the hormones, AGAIN!

And the culprit was these hormone pills , at quite large doses too, that my doctor made me take to keep the twins safe and happy. It was also administered during my first trimester too, and we suspected that it was the cause of all my unhappiness.

The counsellor wrote to my doctor, asking him if it was ok to reduce the dosage of that particular pill, or remove it completely. He did, and instead upped the dosage of another medication that I was suffering no adverse effects from and almost instantaneously...*tadah* i was back to my regular self.

I've been shy to talk about this really. It's like a failing of some sort. You know, you're suppose to be happy and pregnant, enjoy being pregnant, be rosy and glowy. But i was the total opposite of it.

I am starting to open up about it, and i think people should know that pregnancy is hard. Even without extra hormone pills, your hormones ARE everywhere, and preggie people do get weepy and emotional just because. And it is such a physically challenging phase too. And it's ok. I mean great if you have a rosy and happy pregnancy, but it's ok if you suffer the blues too!


my twin pregnancy journal- the stretchmarks are here!

31 weeks

Hurrah! The stretchmarks are here!

In case you're a dense idiot...i'm being sarcastic!

All the bio-oil and cocoa butter i've been lathering on myself have not been able to save me from the dreaded stretchmarks.

To be fair, it was a losing battle to begin with. There was no way, with 2 huge babies resting and growing very very well in my belly, was my skin going to stretch gracefully without breaking into stretchmarks.

I try and remind myself of what a friend's hubby called her stretchmarks, he called them lovemarks. Reminders of how much love and joy she brought into the world.

Sweet...though i'd prefer no stretchmarks still! =)


Monday, January 3, 2011

my twin pregnancy journal- much to be thankful for

week 30

Honestly, I felt a bit guilty yesterday. No, make it a LOT guilty yesterday. Guilty for complaining and whining about the discomforts of this pregnancy that I'm experiencing.

Went to the extended family gathering yesteday, where MANY ooohed and aaaahed over my huge baby belly. I have some relatives who are trying very very hard to have babies, and some who have given up, who rubbed and rubbed my baby belly, hoping that some of the luck would rub off on them and that they would jangkit (be infected) by my pregnancy.

I supposed I'd be the same, if this was back to 1 year ago, and seeing a baby belly would make me terribly jealous.

I AM thankful! I've always been! I just needed to whine and complain, cos it does hurt, it was difficult. I mean it still is. But I'm thankful that we're this far along, and that we're having TWINS!

BUT, I also need to remind myself everyday that this is a blessing that not everyone has been or will be blessed with and that hubby and I have so much to be thankful for.



Saturday, January 1, 2011

my twin pregnancy journal- Maxi Maternity?

Week 30

Because i'm huge, most of my clothes, even the maternity stuff is getting tight.

BUT, today I fished out my favourite ZARA Maxi dress, which doubles up wonderfully as a maternity dress too!

I felt Fab and pretty today, i did!

It was a good way to kick-start the New Year!

(Oh, excuse the birkies. I was really prioritising comfort 
above all else!)

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Happy New Year!

It was a Happy New Year!

For the first time in 5 years, hubby and I counted down at home. Last year we were at Home Club, the year before we were at Blue Jazz Cafe, the year before we watched the fireworks, the year before that we were at Zouk, and the first year we spent NYE together we went to Home Club.

This year we stayed home. I was way too tired to even think about venturing out of my bed to countdown to the New Year. And even though i gave him my full blessings to party away without me, I was absolutely delighted that he chose to stay with me at home.

Next year, babies or no- we're headed out to party!

I also started the New Year feeling absolutely thrilled to catch up with someone whom I've missed terribly. The former boss invited us to his home to thank us for his grand farewell party, and also cos i think he missed us too!

He cooked up a storm- but nothing could compare to the wonderful fish-head curry he served us!